I suppose i'm what many of you may call a 'Hypocrite' when it comes to celebrating monthly anniversary since i remember 2 years ago when i was condemning such practice as downright stupifying a relationship by reminding ourselves the day we got together, how we met, what we did. "We", in this context, is of course, referring to everyone out there who celebrate monthsaries.
Back then, to me, a relationship at this point of life leads to nowhere. I remember myself saying:
"It's vulnerable, anyone could walk straight in and set fire upon the bush and kill us all, never mind those words about how sweet and lovely everything is and Oh-i-love-you-forever, whoever you are, C'est La Vie"
Well, how things have changed when i met Jac, of course. I suppose, this relationship between you and i has enlightened me thus far, in the sense that, we have to treasure every single day that we're going through because, YES - it can be really short given so much limitations when it comes to money, time, place and everything.
Never again i'm the sort of person who was really pessimistic about relationships, like, "fuck all, it never leads to anything anyway so why the fuck?" but i reckon if it really does not lead to anywhere, should we break up when you go overseas, or when i succeed in joining the cadet pilot thing, what's stopping us to enjoy every single day of it?
Because, is it wrong to say that you bring me happiness or just a mere chuckle every single day i'm with you? is it wrong to say that i impress you with my thoughts every now and then, and we smile and laugh every day at everytime? you bitch, i listen. i bitch, you listen - all that, am i wrong to believe that we enjoy every moment of it?
you're probably sleeping right now, yes, you were so dead tired when i dropped you home. it's alright if we can't spend time with each other now, hey, you're tired and you need to attend school, so don't worry too much and SLEEP alright? gees. ==
but after i dropped you home, i find myself asking again, WHY in the world am i going all crazy about you? you're cute? Y-E-S, we all know about that. You're sweet? don't bother asking. then i realized, it's because. . . you make me happy.
No, i'm serious, you do. like, always. time and time again i find myself shoving aside every single thought that bothers me when i'm with you. despite being in the deepest depth of the whole divine hellhole, you were able to stretch a smile across my face like this;
Fuck the fact that we argued frequently, it doesn't matter at all when i think of the time i laughed myself silly at your antics and you, at mine. How we be there for each other, oh how we love to poke fun at each! how we hug, how we teased others, how we bitched, how we kissed and the works.
You, yes,YOU are the girl who's making me celebrate monthsaries. You woke me up and for that, i thank you for being such a grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrreat girlfriend! (yes, grrrrrrrrrrr - like a tiger)
Sorry i can't blog as well as you, i'm not even good with words ffs. So let me wrap this post up with the latest song from the Black Eye Peas.
It's called 'Alive' and yes, you make me feel alive alright? it's a sad song but oh well..i just feel like singing the chorus to you in my car, you know that?
And it's true That i love you And it's true You're the only one And i Do I adore ya And it's true girl You make me feel alive